Of course, you can take the girl out of Texas, but you can’t take the Texas out of the girl. The longer I am here the more country music I listen to. Apparently, it’s astrological but the past week, for no reason really at all, I felt totally unwound and sad. On Thursday night, leaving Kayla’s reading I listened to Willie Nelson’s Always On My Mind and drove around LA kind of aimlessly, crying in that way where you feel so bad that it feels kind of good. The feeling of sorrow had a long tail and lasted for several days. I’m still shaking it off.
Every time I think I’ve figured it out here, someone is rude to me in the Trader Joe’s parking lot in a way that they just aren’t rude in the south, and I remember that I’m foreign to the culture and that the sort of jolliness that permeates Texan culture is simply not a thing here. That said, I’m also really happy just being here. I love the first kiss of fall that has faintly settled in this week. The trees are yellow, the sky tints grey and lavender in the evenings, which are long and drawn out. I like looking at the hills. I tromped around the Silverlake reservoir and ate saffron ice cream with Cameron, and ate a cheeseburger too, all of it slowly realigning me back into the present.
Sighswoon, everyone’s favorite internet philosopher, wrote recently in a viral tweet:
I’ve thought about this a great deal the past few weeks — not only in relation to how the internet seems to speed everything up, but also how available taking time is. Murphy often reminds me that I am just an animal, and that my animal body needs to rest, to take time... It’s still 2005 outside… Despite this frequent reminder, I find that most of the time I want to treat myself as a machine — someone who can be productive, someone who can go, who can do, no matter what. But that is not how the animal body operates. I need sleep, staring vacantly at the wall, thinking no thoughts, just noticing the light changing around me while crying to Willie Nelson.
If other animals could cry, you know they would.
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Two things:
On Wednesday of this week, (9/18!) I’m hosting a reading for my book SOFT POWER at Stories at 7pm. I’ll be joined by beautiful writers Brittany Menjivar and James Francis. I’m VERY excited about it and hope to see you there. God willing I will have more books available for purchase as well! 🌊
I am available to take on several more clients for LinkedIn ghostwriting and social media management. You can check out my website here for more information.
If you’re ready to take it to the next level, I really am that girl. 🍨
That’s all.
Closing it out with a poem from my book:
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